"I woke up weak today and needing your voice
Crawled into the speakers and turned up the volume
Felt so sick today but cured by your noise
My head in the speakers is drowning out volumes"

so as me and cinda were talking, i feel like even if i get accepted into massart, my family would have a hard time affording without taking up a student loan, so therefore i will end up going to bunker hill and transfering.

atleast tuition is free for me D:

i cant wait to hang out with kate next. sat. // i miss her dearly =D

(: mmmmmm cant wait!

just random thoughts:

+why is senior year so expensive?

^class dues that i havent payed yet... =_=',need to save money for college & a laptop, anime boston @_@ atleast i signed up already. prom/ senior outing shit. i really dont want my parents paying for this stuff.

+i need to shower

+damnit, i cant wait till tuesday!

+i should be fixing my script right about now.

^im really excited to finally film this movie, in about 2 weeks. it blossomed from a tiny idea and now its only a matter of time until i finish, well more like 2 months of editing. i hate editing with a passion.

+ i should finish watching Punch Drunk Love; it looks really good.

+ my chin is itchy.

+ that street fighter movie sucked ballllllz

+ the ride to and from the theater were really funny tho :D

+ *sigh* \^___________^/

+ c.r.e.a.m, get the money, dolla dolla bill yallllllllllllllll

+ chicken mcnuggets.

+i have 2 photoshoots to do.

^>_> some chick in my psych class needs pics for her modleing portfolio & the other one... well, i'll be working with animals for the first time D:

+1984...WTF is up with george orwell?

+Lykke Li & drake - little bit  | Radiohead - weird fishes are in constant rotation in my mp3 player.

+ i love my G-iraffe hat.

+ i love cinda and shey shey (: ALOT.

+ i need to get more of those lens cleaners...

+ the city of Canton, MA can suck my balls.

+ bonita applebum, you got to put me on ;]

+ i need to stop having weird lesbian dreams -_- its not healthy.

+ i need to stop by and say hi to rambo at work.

+ i want noodles.

+ i need to tape my glasses again. =[

+ shit, i rubbed my eyes and forgot that i had eyeliner on... now its all over my fucking finger ._.

+ either the shirt im wearing is too tight or i have chest problems.

+ ok, now i reaaaaaaaaaally have to go shower.

+ i should call marc today..... nahhhhhhhhhh.

+ ahhhh why cant it just be spring already?

its been a  while since ive wrote a xanga entry, mmmmm.

lets see,

ive been very busy lately. mostly with work. i love being "the intern" at RAW lol, random coffee runs,weird paper work & shipping stuff to the post office >_>, none the less; i enjoy it (: film school has been keeping my busy too. a bunch of writing, screenplay and acting workshops, but it will all be worth it when we make our narratives.

so ever since september i was involved with the POSEE scholarship. i became a semi-finalist, and then a finalist, it came down to 26 girls, (out of the 1,200 that applied) i was one of them. i went to the finalist interview on monday. i got the letter in the mail today that i didnt get the scholarship. i am not crying or anything but im upset. all the hard work and effort that got put into it. but i do appreciate the opportunity. it was a growing process. just being a finalist is a huge deal. (: plus this forced me to do all my college applications and letter of recommendations wicked early. now i dont really have nothing to worry about. i know that i have a lot going for me, and this is only a minor set back. its also opened up my eyes to out of state schools. i really need to get out of lynn, SOOOOON =_=;

i cant believe gulu-gulu is closing .___.' i LOVEEEEE that coffee shop. that was were i wrote my college essay & thesis papers lol. they made the best warm cookies <33 im gonna miss just being able to cross the street and make small talk with the creepy guy who worked there x]

 for the past 3 months, all i listen to is BLU & EXILE, (: they could quite possibly kick my nujabes-addiction to the curb. O: and thats pretty insane. blu's got the illist rhymes and exile lays be smooth sounds. i recommend them to anybody who loves hip hop. not radio hip-hop >_> i mean the real deal.

AHHHHHHH, i could give a rats ass about what people think (; im just really really really reaaaaaaallly happy. cant wait till friday, hopefully i can end my week off in a more positive note.

"I missed it all, I messed you up, I missed you
I’m coming home, I wanna know
When all the leaves begin to fall
If I’m falling, falling apart for you"

yesterday was unexpected O:

i had work and i had to stay late to clean up the mess because of the flooding. i thought i wasnt going to see jiny, kate & molly. it turns out andy gave me a break and let me get out of work early. hes nice (:  aahhhhh so happy i went. havent seen those girls in a while ^_~  jenniel actually looked surprised,  hahaha!  happy late birthday, hun =]

next week i'll be more prepared ;D ohhhh fo sho'

yesterday i didnt know that they were giving progress reports. so i go down and mr.v is standing there like witha huge smile on his face and hes like "HERE YOU GO!" i look at it and im like "this isnt mine." it had all 'As in it. theres no way it could be mine. it actually was. o______o; so i must be doing something right.i seriously need to keeo this up.  im just mad at myself that i couldnt put this much effort in my work wayyyyyy back freshmen year. but its better late then never.

ahhh. my throat is freekin killing me >=[ i need some tea with honey & crackers... and maybe some peanut butter :D mmmmmmmm peanut butter.

AHHH! this might be the greatest week, EVER!

2 days ago i wasn't feeling so hot, but yesterday!!!

i found out the short film sanabel, chris & i made got into the" DO IT YOUR DAMN SELF" film festivallllllll!!~~~!!!!@@@@ how crazzy is that? i went to that exact same film festival in O5' those movies were so good!!! if you told me 3 years ago that my film would be playing at that exact same festival, i wouldn't have believed it. BUT NOW, ITS FINALLY COME TRUE! <3

then today, davey calls me and tells me that she got a letter from POSSE and tells me to check my mail, and guess what? I GOT INTO THE SEMI-FINALS! ^_____^  yessssssssssssssss. you dont know how badly i want this now. i want to win this. i know i can win this ! im a leader! >=[...... kinda.

 i got to win those judges over! i'll just have to be myslef and hope they just genuanlly like who i am. ughhhh.the anticiaption is killing me.

but at the same time i dont want to put all of my hopes up. its super competitive. =T

wish me luck!